The rapper 50 Cent recalls the grandmother who raised him.

“At 16, I had already been involved in street life for years,” said the rapper and entrepreneur 50 Cent, who was raised by his grandmother after his mother’s death, in a recent interview with The Big Issue.

“I was aggressive enough to get by on the street—but then I’d go home and be my grandmother’s baby. I was outside hustling but I still had to talk my grandmother into letting me walk home from school myself. I said to her, ‘Look, I’m bigger than you now.'”

“It scared me half to death when my grandmother was diagnosed with cancer. My aunt would call me with updates all the time and she always said, ‘Don’t worry, she’s fine.'”

“I’ve never told anyone this, but two years ago, the day she called to tell me … it was early in the morning and I was on a treadmill in the gym. I got to the hospital and the whole family was there. My aunt told me the doctor said she’d had a stroke and there was nothing they could do.”

“They took me to her and she was the smallest I ever saw her. I said, ‘Hello?’ I saw her eyes jump when she heard my voice, like she was trying to see where I was at. Everyone else left and I talked to her for a little bit. Then they all came back in and her heart rate started to drop. My aunt said, ‘Shit, she was waiting for you.'”

“I’ve seen a lot of people pass in the neighborhood. I’ve lost them to motorcycles or altercations or drugs. But none of them impacted like when my grandmother died.”

“She was the love of my life.”